You eat, you shut up and stop whining

*A long stare at the monitor while rubbing my tummy*

I'm so full. Ate 2 nasi lemak for brunch today. I can now skip dinner thank you. Feeling a whole lot of food guilt because I had too much to eat. I don't think I can fit in my normal black skinny jeans anymore. Why do I have such big appetite ? *Staring at some Toblerones in a candy bowl*

God knows how long I've been neglecting any physically active routine. I'm not as lucky as some of my friends. They get to eat their lungs out everyday, but still managed to stay stick thin. You have to hate them for having the kind of genes you long wish you have. Just because they can stuffed their self with great tasty foods all day long. I'm an eater. I need those genes ! Anyhow, I'm grateful with what I have. I know I will never get to be stick thin or skinny because I honestly don't wish to be one. I admire woman with curves. Curves that are well proportion with just enough muscles. I know I need to work out to get that kind of body. And trust me, when I do shed some of my extra weight by working out, I will stop whining right after I eat. I know when to stop worrying about my weight. I'm aware that some people never gets enough being their thin self and wants to be thinner than thin. Have you ever heard of anorexia ? Be healthy honey. Love your body and feed them with the right amount. Trust me, you won't be as big as me ! I'll bet on that.

Sometimes I feel like killing some of my friends who constantly kept insisting that they're fat. If you're fat, what am I really ? Fatso Rhino ? I personally think people really should be careful about the things they about to say. Especially when you're making a statement about you being fat though we all know very well you're not. Get it, you're NOT ! Maybe I'm not the best person to give out advices on loving your body in every shape because sometimes I'm ungrateful myself and put myself off because I felt so fat after I binge too much on foods. But trust me, I know when to stop insisting because eventually people will feel annoyed if I don't. I don't think it's fair when someone kept complaining about their weight or figure with someone that's with the issue even more. It's selfish ! Try to be more absorbent because you might hurt other people's feeling by trying to convince them you're fat when you're actually NOT. Nak keding macam mana lagi ? Haih. Just when I thought I was the only one that always feel unsatisfied slash ungrateful with my body, those people might have way bigger issue than mine and might have proved me wrong after all. Let's be grateful together now shall we ? (:

As for now, I know I should be running around and jumping. But I simply not up for that just yet. Just yet ? Yea. When will it be then ? Typical, typical me. Haha. Instead, let's talk about foods. Haha. Yes foods ! Since Wowo's back from Egypt. I decided to list out some of the places where we could dine together as a whole family.

1. Jack's Charbroil Steak House.

Ohh yummm. One of my favourite place to eat steak. But steak was not all there is to eat. I'm crazy for their Escargot Bourguignonne and Lobster Thermidor.

2. California Pizza Kitchen.

The family and I have been here once. But once is just enough to get us coming again. Cheeseburger pizza have got to be the best pizza I've ever tasted. Okay okay. Maybe the one in Mecca too. But, this is definitely one of my favourite. Other than that, the red velvet cake and the key lime pie are to die for ! Must try !

Love the asparagus sticks !

I'll make sure to try the asparagus soup on our next visit. And many other too. Eat while you can !


3. Tonka Beans Cafe Deli, Ramadhan Buffet in Impiana Hotel, Kuala Lumpur.

Read this one in the newspaper a few months back. And been waiting for Wowo to come back from Egypt because I personally want to experience this with all of us being together forever. Haha. You get what I mean.

4. Melaka.

Kampung-sweet-kampung. Okay, so maybe I changed the famous paraphrase (Home-sweet-home). But all means well for this post and this post only. Where is the best place for ikan bakar ? Hands down it is indeed in Umbai but of course.

5. Raku, Concorde, Shah Alam.

This is the family's favourite place to eat Japanese Foods. Even the workers recognize us and kept saying 'Dah besar dah' almost everytime we came to visit for makan. We usually have lunch or dinner buffet. But they no longer provide buffet services there. Therefore, we haven't been eating there in more like what it seems 2 years. Planning to get the parents down there again.


6. Alexis.

Never had anything besides their meringue berries and a few drinks. Though I highly prefer Delicious strawberry pavlova, the meringue berries taste A-okay for my taste bud. Hoping to get the family to dine there together soon.

7. Sushi King, Subang Parade.

The family love it here. Ever since Raku no longer provide their buffet services to their customer, we turned to Sushi King instead. Practical with the conveyor belt display sushi. And us love Pino ice cream for dessert ! A must !

8. Serai, Section 3, Shah Alam.

Come come come ! (Helping to promote the restaurant. Haha) It's our family's friend restaurant. It's a great place to eat Thai foods. I personally love everything there especially the 'kerabu mangga'. They have other franchise in Pavillion, Kuala Lumpur called 'Serai Satay Bar' that sells satay. And the latest franchised were opened in Empire Shopping Gallery called 'Serai Empire'.

9. Al-Rawsha, Jalan Ampang, Kuala Lumpur.

I know most people would prefer 'Andalus' and 'Castle'. But my family and I have always dined here for great Lebanese Cuisine. It's another family's friend place. Yea, that's why. But the foods are great. My favourite have got to be 'lamb mandi'. Yummm !

10. T-bowl Concept Restaurant, Sungei Wang Plaza, Kuala Lumpur.

Thanks to Wowo and Syasya, I really want to experience eating something out from a toilet bowl. Their ideas ! Haha. I'm not sure why people would eat something from a toilet bowl plate while seating on a real toilet bowl. Sounds rather disgusting right ? But the experience sounds different. That what makes the experience exciting. Okay okay. Fine. I dare to be disgusting. By the way, they're opening their 3rd outlet soon in Sunway Pyramid this November. Be sure to check them out !

11. Pepper Lunch, Sunway Pyramid, Subang Jaya.

This time bringing the whole family !

12. The Garden Restaurant.

This time bringing the whole family !


Other than the ones I listed, I'm up to try out 'Full House', 'Tarbush' and 'Yogi Tree'. Anymore great places to eat you wish to introduce to me ? Please don't hesitate to leave out comments then.

Coming soon

Coming updates, insyaAllah :-

1. Food and I
2. Cuci The Musical 2



As for now, I have other important things to do. Including watching 'Life Unexpected' on the tivo. Hehe.

The thoughts will just have to wait

As I recall - many hours in the office and during my way back home while Uncle Burn was droving the car -, I think I had so many things to include or blog about. There were just so many things I wish I could share that I hardly can concentrate for more than 5 minutes in the amidst of freezing cold office atmosphere.

Been busy trying to juggle my remaining precious time here. How I wish I could just skip the office hour with other things I wish to prioritize. I really need to see some friends before I leave. Hang out and catching up. You know, having fun.

But knowing me, I will never know how to say 'No' to Daddy-O. He wanted me to be ahead all of the others. Learning and understands everything before anyone else. How can I not love him because that's how he cares for me ? As much as I love my mother, I ALMOST always have something to go against her. It's different with Maa. I'm closer to her, yet, my thoughts and hers are always clashing. With her, I did what I'm best at, which is being defensive and opinionated. Ergo, I always go against her. Unworthy child indeed. I'm sorry Maa (:

I don't usually turn on my defensive, opinionated mode with Ayah. It's my way of respecting him. Not that I don't have any respect with Maa. I do. 'Syurga itu dibawah telapak kaki ibu' kan ? It is just, with us being so alike (we're both ego, competitive, defensive and opininated) making the attraction hard to blend in. It's like we're magnets. The positive only attracts the negative magnitude right ? It's like she's a negative magnitude and I'm positive. Why do I get to be positive you ask ? No reason. It can be the other way around and my main point will still be the same. You get what I mean right ? I know she'll miss me when I'm gone. Just because I'm different from all of the others that are always nice to her. Going with her every words. Obeying and abiding. Well I'm not ALL that. Believe it or not, I'm the most rebellious child of hers. Hands down.

I seriously need to stop changing topics like a blink of an eye. Don't even ask how I got here. Hehe.

Being home after long hours at work can be so..peaceful. I couldn't even recall any of my thoughts earlier. Sheesh. It's like my mind was being drained by the serenity in this reckless home of mine. You hear me, reckless. Because there're just so many junk in here (with no maid making it even worst). It's time we get rid of some of the JUNK or if murah rezeki, perhaps, buy a bigger house ? Ahem ahemm, 'Daddddd *freakishly smiling like a lunatic*. Get the signal ?' Hehe. I sound like a huge brat. Benci ! Tarik balik.

When you started missing your friends. Google them !

I miss Shatt ): So I started to Google him. Haha. And I stumbled upon Adibah's blog. One of his closest cousin. And this was what she had to say about him on a recent survey :-




Awww right ? (: I feel so lucky to be surrounded by great friends all of a sudden. Alhamdulillah (:

Paul prediction proved Mani wrong

A Singaporean based parrot namely Mani were proven wrong, making Paul the ultimate psychic. That's what you get for trying to steal in Paul's spotlight !

A shower of confetti for the Spain team.

Priceless !

Haha.

Let's not blame Paul alright ?!

Cute looking Sneijder !

The handsome proud captain, Iker Casillas holding the FIFA World Cup trophy.

Must be a great feeling to have won for their country kan ? Cool !

Haha. Nak menyelitkan juga Germany squad lands in Frankfurt photo.

Mark your calender, the Spanish finally making their debut into winning their first ever WC title after a few failed attempts in synchronizing against the years in barrier from the World Cup trophy.

A congratulation from me is in order to the Spaniard team squad and their whole number of fans / supporters worldwide. Which surprisingly have been increasing drastically. And may that be due to their Euro 2008 winning title ? Might just maybe. I wouldn't know. But some even called this a 'trend' for this year WC. What ever it is, there's no doubt it's going to be a year of celebration for the Spanish team. They wouldn't be done at least by the next 2 years until UEFA Euro 2012 in Ukraine took place. Got to wait for that now.





I personally chose to stay neutral during the game. A wind of change yet AGAIN since I decided to be on the Spanish team side a few days before. But you know what they told you, 'trust your guts'. And my guts might never be with the Spanish team in the first place if it wasn't for Brasil's lost against Netherlands (Though I'll admit on having a soft spot for their incredibly gorgeous, good looks). Yes, I guess I might have had seek revenge for Brasil. But nevertheless, I came to a decision not to be absurd about it and chose to stay by Brasil, England and Germany's side through the end instead . Though they're not in it. Aaa so sad ):




And so, the game didn't do me much anticipation. Less agony I would say. No panic attack for me. Lucky ?

It's a yellow card galore. I can tell that I hardly enjoy the game and were forcing through the trigger of going to bed before the game ended. Personally, because I thought the match wasn't as smooth as I would like it to be. It's final. You can't help but to expect more from the game. And no, this doesn't came from an angry German or Brasil's fan point of view (I'm over that). The way I see it, both teams were obviously nervous and desperate in winning. They were pushing over their limits to shoot on goals that they outbound the quality in their game.

Villa wasn't performing like how I would have hoped for. The chances were there though, but not quite up to my expectations. He could have done a lot better. The first half of the game was rather slow. Maa who happened to stayed up for the match because of Spain couldn't no longer bare with the match and decided to put herself to sleep after the first half ended. This was her reaction, "Slow nya. Germany kalau main mesti laju". Well I have to agree (And again NO ! Not because I'm a Germany fan myself). Except during their match with Spain through the semi-final. It was a mistake made by the Germans for not giving their all. Looking tiresome was one part. The other part which came from a friend who said that they felt threaten by the Spanish team because they thought that they're inexperienced to be playing against the superior Spaniards. As there were a lot of young players in the German squad. In which that friend of mine relates to a few Gunners matches against Manchester United and Chelsea. But that was a whole set of personal point of view. Either way, Spain won fair and square against both Germany and Netherlands (:

Villa getting hyped with the winning cup.

Netherlands on the other hand played violently with nine yellow cards in total during the match. Spoiling Spain's tactical in ball passing. They could have had the chances of winning the cup if it weren't for Robben two disappointing clear shot chances. It was perhaps the best chances for them since Iker was too good to be true and making it hard for the Oranje to get through. Indeed a wasteful efforts from the Dutch striker. Sneijder tried his very best in my defense. Heitinga on the other hand, got himself a sour bench to sat on after getting two yellow cards that night for agonizing the Spain players.

Poor Alonso. That must have been hurt.

The man to be thanked that night, Andres Iniesta who scored one victory goal for his team, Spain through the 116' during the extra time match.

And the lack of Netherlands photos being shown here frankly not because I'm biased. Fairly because it hurts to see this ...

Sneijder ):

This may be the end of 2010 FIFA World Cup ): But the end of it is only the beginning of my football obsession (: And my ongoing support for this tournament. YES ! I'm obsessed with football. And it's true in the saying that, 'Sports are at it's best when it brings people together'. Form 3 history taught me well. You have it all here on FIFA WC. Though there's only 32 nations in total playing in for the world class tournament, the whole world came together to join in the spirit of cheering their preferable team(s).

Family gatherings in order to watch the matches relevantly together are always an extra towards the 31 days of the World Cup season. I certainly enjoy watching the matches with my family. I'll bet the others do too. Thanks to some of my friends too who made FIFA World Cup 2010 more enjoyable to watch, because I finally understood the game well enough to construct my own opinions. Maybe. Hehe.

Hardly can't wait for 2014 !

Have to love this a lot ! Nadallllll ! A Spaniard and no 1 player for this year Wimbledon with the Spanish squid. Eh eh. Squad. Hehe.

10th July 2010

The fact that I failed to do great in my I.E.L.T.S test (I have a feeling) left me with the thoughts to ignore this blog for awhile.

At least, until now (:

I'm all better ! Not convincing aye ? Okay, maybe I'm not ALL better ): But getting there. I'm so frustrated for the fact that I know I can do so much better. If only I managed to control the itch of my nervousness, then all should means well to me. What I should be feeling right now is a sense of relief not regret.

But the reality stands in now. Nothing I could really do to make things different at this point. So I might as well leave the thoughts and wait for the next 2 weeks until the end result is out. Ya Allah, please let it be not-that-bad. Amin

So, what happened yesterday morning was something I should left unmentioned. I don't even want to recall. After I got back from the test, I stuffed my noisy tummy with mee jawa and off for a long nap a minute right after. I know how bad that sound, but I really couldn't care much less that I'm not doing justice for my digestion. For once, I chose to take better care of my heart rather than my tummy first. And at the very least, I know that I'm being fair because I filled my tummy up first to make the noises stop.

Got up by Yaya's noise making device, her handphone. Went downstairs and found out Maa and Ayah had just got back home from golf in Seremban with satay kajang. Apa lagi, lepas tu bedal satay la. But as I was enjoying the food with high satisfaction, the parents started asking me about the you-know-what. I couldn't no longer suppressed my feelings and let them know eventually that I might be failing them. And as much as I wanted to cry, I did not (Clap clap). Instead, I went for a pause and started to complain. And the rest you wouldn't want to know.

Glad all turned out fine by the end of the day. Went to the driving range with Yus to swing some balls. Hundred to be exact. Not much I suppose. They're closing in early at BJ that night. In fact, we were the last one there. And half of the lights were off. Spooky ! Had a few soaring balls to make me forget the not-so-happy things earlier. Since Yus haven't had his dinner yet, we decided to call out Iddy to join us for makan. End up dropping by at Syaz's house for an unexpected barbeque invites because Iddy was there. And met Amir, Syaz's boyfriend and Syaz's sweet cousin, Nawal. Glad the night topped off my suck-ish morning. I'm all good (: Thank you thank you !

Looking on a brigther side

Since Brasil didn't even get to go through the quarterfinals. I personally can't wait for the next 4 years from now. Weeehooo !






It's going to be in Brasil ! Winning final in your own country would be beyond amazing. So, I'm again hopeful for Brasil (: Yaya will be 21 by the time. The same age as I am now. I hope she's sticking to Brasil. So we can cheer for Brasil together. Again.

Mak nenek strikes back

Rise and shineeee ! Not quite a good day for the German fans I predicted. Haha. Yes, I can predict now. Oooo My Goddd ! (Sing it Usher style this time !)I hate predictionsss ! Anyways, let's skip the things we already know. Yes yes, Viva la Espana. Yadda yadda. I wouldn't say it's a luck to the Spain. They deserved to win. We all should have known that through the first half of the match. Ball possession exactly my point. Plus, the Germans look tired. I hope Spain win against Netherlands for finals. Because Oranje, I'm uhh.... full stop. Not going to say anything there. I don't even know what to say frankly. I'm not a fan maybe ? Skip skip.

So anyway, Yaya got herself a cool new bike. Orange in colour (Oranje Yaya ? Really?). And another extra bike in black for any one of us / any of her friends who would want to join her riding. We rode the bike yesterday as soon as Uncle Frank and Uncle Fir deliver it to us. And it was raining when we rode it. Up to no good. Haha. By the way, I think she got the idea to start riding again due to this :-





This was a great night for me. My first time riding a fixie bike. Thanks again to Sya. You wouldn't know how much I love her ! Not only due to this, but for many others too. She's the one and only person I could rely on when I need a shoulder to cry on if I got so stressed out at home. My siblings at home probably too young to be listening to what I have to say. Yaya wouldn't know how to help me out (I figure), if she happens to see me crying. I like to keep things to myself even from my own family. I'll say this though, being the eldest is hard. Veryyy hard. Especially when you got 5 younger siblings that could be judging you because they want to look up to someone's older than them. You'll find yourself trying to be the as-imagined-image your parents hopeful for and trying to be a perfect example to the little ones. And parents, especially Asian parents, toughen you up by not giving you enough credits. Sometimes, it's depressing. And you'll try really hard portraying and conveying them you're good enough for all they wanted you to be. And trust me, most of the time, you feel like a loser, because things will never be enough. As they strive and set you up to be the best among the best. One way to another, it's good and reflects more positive outcome. And I'll probably be thanking them more in the future. For now, fragile human being like myself need to be praised for her efforts. Which most of the time invisible and got replaced with other things I failed to impressed. And in the end, you got praised with none of the things you wish them to see you're doing. And you might act all desperate for them to notice you, knowing that you may not be living under the same roof with them in a few years time.

Now, how can I talk from bike to this aye ? Haha. Told you I'm a mak nenek suka membebel buta. Sometimes membebel helps you to express yourself. I have too many things to share for now. And I'll be having more time next week to pour it all out after I'm done with I.E.L.T.S. InsyaAllah, through my experiences, I'll give my share so that you won't feel as miserable you may be feeling now. Life's a journey. You'll be going through tides and waves, uphill and downhill, lights and darkness, and the list can go on and on. But never let yourself feel like your life is worthless. In the end, the things you could do is, to be happy for yourself and all the good things you know you did if you couldn't make other people notice that.

What a way to end this post. Dramaticccc ! Haha.

Waiting..

I remember like it was yesterday, how I reacted unpleasantly towards not being able to watch 'Pabila Larut Malam' when it first premiered on Astro Prima. I blamed it all on Astro for having a bad signal. How can I not be ? I loveeee Sazzy Falak ! She's the only reason I'm tuning in to Astro Prima an hour early so that I won't missed out the show.

Luckily, it's on air now until 2 ! A perfect time to end the show since I'm waiting for Germany's match against Spain at 2.30 a.m. today. No need to elaborate more on that. I've talked enough. So let's just watch it together and ends it tonight.

Mak nenek side of me

True. Kalau dah hebat tu, hebat la. But it also true that luck can come from the match. Being competitive with the fact. Hehe. That's me.

But you have to agree with me with the jinx part. It's a same call as for being too happy. People said that, if you get overboard with excessive joy, you'll get the total opposite by the end of the day. And it's true. How many of us have had been through that ? And don't lie. All of this happened in relation for you to always stay grounded with everything. Dalam Bahasa Melayunya, 'Beringat'. When we do something excessively, we usually forget our deity. Ye lah, kalau happy sangat, manusia lalai nak ingat Tuhan.

Anyway, going to stop being mak nenek suka membebel. Let's talk about football. Yes. Again. I know. Shhh !!

Obviously, all I've been up to talk about is football lately. Blame me, I can't help but to put up with my intensity in words. Especially with World Cup season that's coming to an end soon. No ! Am not looking forward to that. But that what makes FIFA World Cup so inviting. You have no choice but to wait in patience. And if you're lucky, you'll get through another 4 years being alive to watch another great season of the World Cup matches.

The match all have been venting about for these past few days, of course, between Spain and Germany. It's happening Thursday morning at 2.30 a.m, Malaysian time. I should have just skip that because everyone knows that. Don't I ? Anyway, my point is, I'm so out of my way. I can't help but to feel nervous for Germany like the last time I felt for the Brazilian squad. Which if I add, lost to Netherlands. Is this a sign ?(No ! No ! No ! No ! No !) That maybe, and just maybe, Germany going to lose to the Spaniards. And if so, I would be devastated for myself but happy for Villa. And yes, only him. Okay, maybe Casillas and Iniesta too. But yes, my point is, I'm going to be devastated.

Besides being hopeful, I think what I really need is a lucky charm. And according to Syaz, she's lucky ! Very lucky ! And I want to get a piece of her charm ! (Sing it Orianthi style !). So Syazo, be my lucky charm for the night ! Or the very least, lend me your charm pleaseee (:

This is her with her lucky charm on her right hand. I guess -__- Nampak tak ?
Thank me for securing your picture with a copyright Syaz ! Or, mmm, blame me for stealing. No ? Sorry ):

I could really use for a wish right now

Panic mode all over again !! Told you it's not going away. Not until it is all over. God, I tried to stuff everything. I can only hope you keep it there and help me go through it. I want to do well. But as always, I'm not putting too much hope because I'm afraid I might get disappointed. Help me because YOU are the only one who could.

And since I'm already asking, can I get a duffle coat, sequin mesh / sequin embellished / embroidered mesh / mesh beaded top, crop top or sweater, bomber jacket, high top sneakers, nude trench coat, trophy jacket and a pair (or more)of boyfriend jeans ? Pleaseeee ! Hehe. Kidding. But but but.. Ya Allah, Kau murahkanlah rezeki aku sekeluarga dan kawan-kawan. Amin.

By the way, remember the diagram from the previous post ? This what had happened since I changed it to my newest profile picture on Facebook.




Tell me I'm being nice. And Ayie, stop it already before you get me annoyed by being so defensive. Everyone have their own opinion. Don't try to push it in so much ! I did totally the opposite. Why push ? So chill man !

Germany, do your absolute best. And that is all I'm asking. For a great forward match.

I'm off to study. I hope I won't be around until I'm done with the test full stop !

Germany ?

I know it's not happening yet, and I'm not even sure if Germany's going to win this year FIFA WC. They're not even through for Semi yet. But I'm hopeful and this diagram somehow helped a lot cheering me up to have some faith with the German squad.