thinking the way he thinks

God blessed us with heavy rainfalls these days. I mean seriously. I can't even drive more than 60km/h. Sometimes I even drove around 40km/h. You know that's not normal for me.

I went to Sunway for a movie with Alonn. Left the house around 2 p.m. Excited ! that's what I felt when I left the house. I can't believe that I got to hang with him as a friend. It's almost impossible for a girl to at least befriended with someone who used to be her boyfriend. I don't see a lot of people do that these days. But I guess it's okay since I end up in a good way with him.

I picked him up at Taylor's. We decided to go to Sunway together in one car instead of going separately. That way, I supposed we get to chat a bit. Turns out, I was wrong. He sat in the car looking, umm, sad ? It's like he's sad to see me. I guess he's not over it. It's not like I did. But I tend not to over think the situation. Because I know it's for the best for me now.

Things get better when we were in the building walking and heading to the movies to buy tickets. We decided to watch Jennifer's Body since I've been longing and bragging about it ever since earlier this month. We didn't have that much time left to went for window shopping or a lunch together since the movie started at 2.45 p.m. It was already 2.40 p.m. when we bought it. So, we went straight to the food counter to buy a caramel popcorn and some drinks for each. I expected more from the movie though as it is a 'blahhhh' kind of thing for me. But Megan Fox fo shizzling hot !! All the way (even with less make up on).What ? Can't a girl drool over another girl without being gay ?

Anyway, we joke around a bit during the movie. And I was scared to some part of the movie (blood scares me!)that he tried to make me less afraid. Thanks Alonn !

Okay, here comes the not-so-good part. After the movie, I decided that I wanted to browse on clothes. Since Yaya asked me to buy her something from Topshop. I thought we were okay now. But he started putting the sad face all over again. I was okay at first. But I started to feel a bit mad and annoyed. I mean, why can't he be happy for me ? It's not that i left him for another guy. But after minutes of thinking about it during on my way back home, I think it's not fair for me to be mad at him. It's hard for him. Especially when he has a heart of an old woman. Somehow, it shows how much he loves me. I mean right ? I'm not delusional I guess.

Drove back in serious heavy rained. Here's some pictures to prove it. Which I took by myself while driving.
It's like I'm committing suicide ey ?

Shaky a bit.

A better picture than before.

See what I meant by the heavy rained ?

never easy

Source : Le Love

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So far, this is my 3rd goodbye for this month. Saying it was difficult. But it needed to be done. I'm trying not to turn back because then, things won't change. I hope you will understand and still be there as a friend.

Love,
Lisa

moving on dear lisa

(I PUT THIS ON DRAFT FOR A FEW DAYS)

Advice of the day : Some people needs to get a real hobby. Instead of making a fool out of others and even themselves.

Today I'll say a mixture of overwhelmed feelings.

I went to KLIUC, finally decided to packed my remaining things left in the hostel after being forced to. Just because I needed to see my examiner during my final project presentation to get the corrected report made by him. I thought I might as well just take my stuff and never look back again after everything is settled.

Happy thoughts of leaving KLIUC and graduates suddenly fades while I was packing. Seeing my room (which no longer mine)half empty makes it hard to move on. I've been living there since June 2007. That was my first semester in KLIUC. And that room, G115, left me with so many good memories. It's my place of zen. And let just say, I got the best view to keep my eyes entertained. Since it's a single room, every time I feel like getting away from people or needed some privacy, there I would be.

To keep it short, I finished packing. Alone. I managed to capture a few pictures using my hp after the room was left empty. I handed my key to the warden. And as hard as it is for me to believe and digest, the room was no longer mine. I no longer have the key to the room. Am I doing the right decision ? Let's hope I did (I'm not going to flunk my papers !!).

The room number

Tadaa ! The inside of the room. Small ?

Clearer view on the inside of the room. At the end
of the bed, there's a ....


Cupboard !


First window view. My friends and I did a lot
of 'skodeng' here. You can see one of the main stairs/ways
to the academic block area.



The second window view. I'm going to miss this a lot.
Skodeng was fun ! Thanks beautiful people. Ahah.

trophy jacket

What I am saving for now is a trophy jacket. Especially the embroidered and sequined ones. They are just to die for. If only I have money to buy them now. They cost mostly RM300 and above. Insane I know. A must have especially for someone like me who loves jackets. They will never be a phrase 'too many jackets' from me. They're essential. But of course only to me (:

take my eyes off

I hate my shopping guts ! I can't stop hunting new clothes and shoes. My eyes are always lurking. Sometimes I wish I'm more like my sister, Nurin. Really, I need to stop spending. God must hate me so much now !

what she should do next ?

I forgot how this works. Can you really blame me ? It's been a month or so that I've been neglecting this blog of mine. I can't seem to begin with anything. Where to start ? What to say ? Who to mention ? But all I know is that I need to get my fingers running.

Let's start with something recently. I've finally compelled my last bit scene in college, in which will let me move on with my next chapter, which is going for degree. InsyaAllah with God dis-reluctant willingness to let me pass every paper and subject, I should be the happiest person on that very coming day. Definitely a fun sight aye ? Well for me not you.

Next mission, postgraduate ! I know it's a bit too late and that I should apply for a degree sooner. But it's better than never right ? I should be busy going back and forth to the KLIUC admin office somewhere between now. Dad reminded me earlier this morning to let the college apply for my abroad studies. It's all in the planning. But I really hope to get to experience studying abroad. Always been a dream of mine. Let's keep hoping.

Since I'm now malfunctioning, my plan is to keep myself busy with 'a list of things to do' for the next few months ? :-

(1.) Apply for degree.
(2.) Be a tutor to ma soeurs and frere.
(3.) Do some reading.
(4.) Learn to cook.
(5.) Sharpen my languages.
(6.) Spare more time to practice with the piano.
(7.) Hang out with friends.
(8.) Spend time with le boyfriend.
(9.) Go for practical.
(10.) Get a job.
(11.) Catching up some movies and tv series.
(12.) Get familiar with roads in KL. In order, pergi merewang more often. (Sorang-sorang pon jadilah. Tak pun terpakse tag and pakse sesape yang not willing to teman.).
(12.) Go to the gym or play tennis.
(13.) Call Zainab !!!!!
(14.) And probably, take IELTS.

That's it for now. I can't think of anything else to list down. As if for now, I think should take a shower and do some cleaning.

at the top of the world

A day to finally cheer ! Hip hip hoorahh !

no one cares

Everything's hard. And I really need to let it out.