eid mubarak = photography session

Someone told me to update. It's fair enough I'm doing it so now just because I think I should keep my only reader entertain with my posts. You know who you are. Ahah.

I have to say and admit that I miss this. I miss having something to write about with so many tabs on one window. I'm not as busy as I am before. But lately, my brain is restless. Too much television plus those sugary 'kuih raya' that I had which makes my body and mind functioning a little bit slower than usual. Other than that, I'm saving some thoughts for my reports which I have to get it done before next Friday. Oh so jolly baby ! I can't wait to get it done. Going to be the happiest person alive on that very day. So, let's make sure I'm all for it by Friday next week aye ?

It's the 6th day of Raya. Well, Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir & Batin. Better late than never right ? Raya was not mind blowing, but it was better than last year and still tacky and fun in a way. Especially during photography session. So it was better because we got Mak Uteh's family and Mak Uda's family on the first day of raya because last year they were all booked on the first day at their husband's side of the family. We missed you guys last year !

I'm not planning to make this long. Since I have a few more important things to do. I'll promise, I will have more time for you after my finals.

team taylor

So I missed out VMA earlier this morning. But I read music blog about what Kanye West did this time. To sum up, he is a total douchebag ! I so hate his ghetto guts !! Screw his talent ! Being that disrecpectful does not give you anymore publicity in being successful for long. What an assfacehole !

Sorry, but I just got to post this one. I HATE HIM !

ordinary

So anyway, I wanted to post this though it's nothing really. Yaya and Wowo came out with a joke that only we understands. It's a malay version of Gossip Girl in which we translated it to 'Gadis Gosip'. I'm not a joker. I don't really know how to make jokes. So, I'm not posting about what they did. I'm just telling you off that they came out with 'Gadis Gosip' tu je la. Haha. Nanti-nanti je la cerita ey.

i love boys

This is strictly for an open mind male reader


Sometimes guys can be so darn ass stupid. No offense. Or they just rather prefer pretend to be stupid so that they can get away with things easily and make us girls look even more stupid. I guess you don't get my point. Ey ? Let me elaborate with a story that happened not too long ago.

I used to date this one guy. And so everybody knew about it. At least our friends did. We've dated for awhile back then, and some even thought that we would last forever. Not that I ever thought about it anyway. I was too young to think about it. I think I am still young to think about it now either. So anyway, back to the story. One day, when he thought I wasn't looking because he thought that I wasn't around. He held a girl's hand, his close friend to be exact while swinging it back and forth. He looks so happy and cheery that I remember I could even hear some happy tunes in my head with birds chirping on the side of it. I was stunned. At that very point, all I could think of was he trying to get caught red handed. Was he trying to let me see it for myself that he wasn't any longer interested to date me. I was furious. Because I thought we're committing to something. Not that I was expecting that we would end up together in the future. But we dated, and I took it seriously as in being able to stay loyal to one person. At least, if he wasn't interested to date me anymore, have the guts to say it to my face instead of blowing me off and embarrassed me with more humiliation because people knew that we were dating and yet, he's holding other girl's hand. Make it official first before doing something that could leads to people talking about it. To me, it's the greatest humiliation of all time. There were a lot of people. Was he even considered about how I feel ? How can he not have any feelings for doing it since we're not officially off dating anymore. So anyway, I went straight to him and tell him off. I told him that we need to talk. So we talked. And I told him, how I thought that we're still dating and why in an odd world would he do that without considering what other people would think of me. People will not think of him and what he did. They will think of me instead because I was dumb enough to let myself stood up to a guy who cheated on me and be okay about it. Guess what he said back to me ? All he could think of was 'I'm sorry, I didn't realized it. I thought it was okay for me to do it'. Sure it was okay for him to do it. But when I was on the other hand did nothing wrong with a guy friend then just walked with him, people make a huge deal about it. Telling the guy I was dating that I cheated on him. Sick inglorious bastard ! Now get what I mean ?

Guys are just not as sensitive as girls do. They think they could get away with things easily. And they think girls are just to coward to stand up for themselves. They'll try to put all the blame on girls if they can. Well let me tell you something guys. Doesn't mean we girls keep our mouth shut to most of the time, doesn't mean we can easily be fooled by your sick guts. It just mean that we sees you as a typical guy that we plan to keep in a short while until we found someone better. Don't blame it on us. I kindly told you so.

The moral of the story, show some respect if you're dating someone. Don't make them look stupid because of what you did is stupid. Then you're an ass for being selfish. Shame on you !

P/S : This does not change the fact that I love boys !

the one with an attitude

THIS IS NOT A WAR ! I REPEAT, THIS IS NOT A WAR !



Asha wrote something 'bitchy' in her blog. It's not her, but what she wrote is bitchy. She called her own sister a crazy bitch. The one that she, I guess wants to be just like the most, Yaya. She really needs to consider other's feelings. We've considered her's.

To Asha : Miss Snow White, I think you have to apologize to someone. You've been rude to people. I wish you could be nicer. I know you're still young. But that does not give you a free getaway ticket to simply disrespect people especially your elder sisters. You are not even that young anymore too. Get a reality check because you're not getting any younger. WE are not getting any younger. Act nice will you my love. We love you. But the fact that you're never nice to people makes us hate your bitchy guts. If you want to be part of us and if you want us to give you more respect, please do us a favour, be nice okay sayang. I hope you're taking this as a word of advice. Don't get too sensitive will you ?

home

Can't wait to get home !!! Though it's been only one day not being at home. I must say I miss home already. I agreed to the saying, 'Home is where the heart is'. Makes me into thinking twice to further study abroad.

so 'euw' funny,

Mood Status : Reminiscing

I think it's funny how I still end up with Alonn after a few, to be exact 3 times on and off. Especially funny when I read back my older post 'fairytale ending'.

so many clothes yet nothing to wear ?

I love Syazo's latest post. Because I'm about the same (:

consideration

I went to Mid Valley yesterday with friends to 'Berbuka Puasa' and for an afterward movie. It was all 10 of us. Eca, Danial, Zila, Jojie, Izil, Anep, Shiera, Kurt, Haikal and yours truly (: I was being normal and frankly happy to see Eca after more than a month or so not getting the chance to see one of my best friend. She looks pretty as usual. I just wish she could see that. Because she never been good to and about herself. Always the one I know that wouldn't stop judging and condemning herself. To Eca : Syg, you're more than a pretty face. You have a good heart. May sounded cliche since people usually said that to make the other person feels better. But honestly you do. So quit being so hard on yourself.

So I was saying, I was happy. Too bad that not all of us feels the same. Let just say, some were having some down moment with their other half. One thing that I find somehow annoying. Not that I can never understand what they're going through. It is just, I wish they could just put those thing aside first since the point of going out together was to enjoy. Fake it for the sakes of not trying to ruin your friends mood. I'm not hypocrite myself, but sometimes you just have to consider other people's feelings first than yourself. Get in control with your emotions. And if you can't, avoid trying to go out with your friends because you wanted to let loose and enjoy. Don't get me wrong, if for the fact that you really wanted to have fun, then do it. Forget about other things. Not that I don't have any of what they're going through and not that I don't have other things to worry and get settle. But I think it's unfair for you to expressed it during where the point of hanging out is to be happy. Unless, you're hanging out for the point that you need to talk to someone and share about your problems. It's totally different. Because then, you know what to expect. As for last night, I was expecting something like 'the more,the merrier'. You get what I mean ? But still, I was not going to let my mood ruin. So I tried to stay positive and be a lot more understanding. Movie was a lot of fun. We watched 'The Ugly Truth'. I had a great laugh and I'm glad I had a good audiences. Makes it more enjoyable to watch.

But I must say, I was even more happy when I called A, as in for Alonn(happy bby?) to end of my long day. Thank you (:

P/S : Thanks Syah ! For helping me out with my notebook. I owe you.

mind on hiatus

(Spinning head)

I'm lack of inspiration in writing at the moment. Trying to stay focus with the more important stuff. If you can read my mind, you'll know what I mean.

are you happy now ?

A have been insisting me to update my blog. He asked me to write more about him. So 'tak tahu malu punye laki'. Aha.

To A : Is this considered ? At least I mentioned your initial kan ? (:


So,

Life has been great. Alhamdulillah. Though I am a bit stress out with my final project. 2 weeks left. I need to stay on the positive side to get in control by not getting nervous and panic at the same time.

To Naj : Hold on. We can do it !

she's 43

The queen of my heart. Happy Birthday Mama ! I love you (:

i'll wear them

Sweating worst than a pig yesterday at gym class. Wasn't at my best to do work outs. But it felt good to let out more sweats than usual since I haven't been to the gym for almost 2 weeks. This was what Sherina said to me, 'Basahnya !'. Yea, you can bet I look, umm, .. very unattractive and smelly. Haha. There goes my chance with the guys at the gym. Shoot ! Heh.


I saw people have been losing some weight already since we're in the fasting month. It's easier when you eat less and you're working out at the same time. But no, not for me. I'm on the other hand think that I've been gaining weight instead. I have a very huge appetite especially when I'm at home where I'm around good foods all the time. I suck upon that. With all the 'masak lemak', cheese cake, kuih raya(belum lagi raya tu. haih) and buttery home cook meal. Ya Allah sedapnye ! Now tell me how to stop ?

I'm missing A. I've been missing him since we last met.
So, I finally confessed to my friends, Izil and the others that I haven't been great with A. I never told anyone about it. Well, Naj, Jay and my sisters know about it, but they haven't heard all of it. Just because I think it's a bit too private to share and I don't want them to judge A otherwise. I don't want them to have anything bad to say about A. It's not fair to him. You know what I mean, right ?


We had our issues. And personally I think, it's not our fault. The faulty I must say is the situation. We're stuck in between reality. I don't have to elaborate more, because it's fair enough for me to say that none of us want this to happened. But it's all in the past. I haven't been great with him. But now I have. Moving on is always the best way to not reminisce about the past. Unless the past was something that you would like to remember upon. I would look back on this in the future. Maybe not just now. I'm ready for the next step.


So, lately, I have this craze about shoes. Those killer high heels. It's not the most comfortable footwear, but it's hard to ignore the beauty essential of the shoes. I know I will not wear them often, but people close to me sure can see I've been wearing my heels more than usual lately. Mom was a bit star struck ed when she saw me wearing heels last Monday. I just gave her a quick look with a crooked smile and blurted out 'You want this don't you ! You said I never wore this. So now I did. Happy ?'. Then she smirked with a smile. I love my mama (:


Like I've said. I have gone crazy with killer high heels. And I'm planning on expanding my collection. I'll wear it, promise ! Swear on .... okay okay. It's never good to swear on anything. But I'll bet for 10 bucks that I will wear them. Happy ?


I have a lot more to write. But, I really need to get ready for my horse back riding lesson at 1730 hour. I'll post another one tonight. If I have the time to.