Mood : Happy (:

Greetings earthlings,

I come in peace \/

Umm. Okay I'm not sure why I did that. It's unexplainable.

Anyway, after meeting some friends from KLIUC yesterday and today, I can finally smile wide (: I've been missing some friends really bad. You don't know how I've been struggling to find my way in between times to see them. God knows. And I was even half way from crying while hugging Nina yesterday after running into her in KLIUC. The last time I saw her was during my birthday. And she never failed to remember and celebrate it with me. Indeed I always feel special because birthdays often felt normal in my family just because we don't celebrate it. Not as much. It all comes down because Dad used to it and just because he comes from an unfortunate family where birthdays aren't that important to anyone and people tend to not even remember their own birthdays. Life was very hard back then for him. He's an inspirational for always staying true and grounded.

Okay. I did it again. Haha. You have to get used to it by now.

Where was I again ? Oo yea, friends. After spending little time talking to Nina, went to meet Amal at UNITEN afterwards before getting back home. We didn't get to talk that much. But by just meeting her was more than enough to get me smiling. Today, went to KLIUC again to get my graduation robe. It looks super lovely and guess what ? Brand new too !! We get to be the first batch wearing the new robes. Aren't we're the lucky ones. Hehe. Feels like keeping it pun ada. Too bad that's not even an option to begin with (I guess). Can't wait to see everybody this Saturday. I swear I'm going to try very hard (or I might not have to even try)to have so much fun ! Not going to miss out each and every moment from it. Hope everything goes well for all of us on that day. God, I beg you to please ! Amin.

Anyway, I'm glad that I get to finally spend some time with Naj today. It was nice talking to her because she gets me. It was great to let everything out from my system too. I needed that. And I'm looking forward to spend more time with her. Hopefully, insyaAllah. We'll be doing each other a favour if it happens (: As for Zila, Jojie and Izil, I bet I'll be seeing those faces soon enough again. In fact, as soon as tomorrow insyaAllah. Haha. They've been around for the most part. Lurking through my every phases. Maybe not always. But like I've said, for the most part. Glad I knew these people (:

That's it for now. I'm practically too happy to blog. That's dangerous. Being too happy aren't always a good signal. If you get what I mean, then clever you (:

Toodles Caboodles !

When you started missing your friends. Google them !

I miss Shatt ): So I started to Google him. Haha. And I stumbled upon Adibah's blog. One of his closest cousin. And this was what she had to say about him on a recent survey :-




Awww right ? (: I feel so lucky to be surrounded by great friends all of a sudden. Alhamdulillah (:

10th July 2010

The fact that I failed to do great in my I.E.L.T.S test (I have a feeling) left me with the thoughts to ignore this blog for awhile.

At least, until now (:

I'm all better ! Not convincing aye ? Okay, maybe I'm not ALL better ): But getting there. I'm so frustrated for the fact that I know I can do so much better. If only I managed to control the itch of my nervousness, then all should means well to me. What I should be feeling right now is a sense of relief not regret.

But the reality stands in now. Nothing I could really do to make things different at this point. So I might as well leave the thoughts and wait for the next 2 weeks until the end result is out. Ya Allah, please let it be not-that-bad. Amin

So, what happened yesterday morning was something I should left unmentioned. I don't even want to recall. After I got back from the test, I stuffed my noisy tummy with mee jawa and off for a long nap a minute right after. I know how bad that sound, but I really couldn't care much less that I'm not doing justice for my digestion. For once, I chose to take better care of my heart rather than my tummy first. And at the very least, I know that I'm being fair because I filled my tummy up first to make the noises stop.

Got up by Yaya's noise making device, her handphone. Went downstairs and found out Maa and Ayah had just got back home from golf in Seremban with satay kajang. Apa lagi, lepas tu bedal satay la. But as I was enjoying the food with high satisfaction, the parents started asking me about the you-know-what. I couldn't no longer suppressed my feelings and let them know eventually that I might be failing them. And as much as I wanted to cry, I did not (Clap clap). Instead, I went for a pause and started to complain. And the rest you wouldn't want to know.

Glad all turned out fine by the end of the day. Went to the driving range with Yus to swing some balls. Hundred to be exact. Not much I suppose. They're closing in early at BJ that night. In fact, we were the last one there. And half of the lights were off. Spooky ! Had a few soaring balls to make me forget the not-so-happy things earlier. Since Yus haven't had his dinner yet, we decided to call out Iddy to join us for makan. End up dropping by at Syaz's house for an unexpected barbeque invites because Iddy was there. And met Amir, Syaz's boyfriend and Syaz's sweet cousin, Nawal. Glad the night topped off my suck-ish morning. I'm all good (: Thank you thank you !

Being observant

Let's face it. I am never going to finish writing about my Bali trip. I never did finish writing about any of my trips or vacations to anywhere that I have ever been to. Remember Taman Negara with my friends a few months back. Yeah, never get to finish journaling about that too. It might get a little bit too long if I did. Knowing me, I love going into details (Not always necessary for others to read since it's a personal value)so much that it would take me a lot more actual days to finish it than it should have been.

Anyways, some things would be better left unsaid. I guess this is a way of God telling me that sharing is not always a way to show that you care and that you should always be careful with your intentions when doing so. Because sometimes it's not always good to share everything. You'll confused yourself behind the reasons why you're actually telling and sharing some things with people. I'm aware of the thin lines between sharing and showing off. InsyaAllah, let there be a guidance for me to always have good intentions with the things I would be sharing in the future and how I share it.

I have to admit though, most of the things I wrote in the past was a way for me to connect and communicate with my sister, Wowo. She's too far away from home to know everything that's been happening here with us family. And though I'm sure I'm not explaining things perfectly to help her picture us here, I do still hope she could feel like she was with us most of the time when we were doing things as a family. And it's my way of saying that she's not that far and the family always feel like she's here with us and that we miss her dearly. Apart from that, it's another reason for me to help and let myself out and express oneself better in writing. I think it may help me to improve and get better. And perhaps, develop some writing skills through it. InsyaAllah, where there's a will, there's a way.

Anyway, things Alhamdulillah been going well for me. I still have a few things to complain (Keeping in to myself though). That's because I'm not always grateful and not nearly close to perfect. But apart from that, I'm happy 98 percent of the time. Friends been great. They understood, better yet, understands my condition and how I am not always capable to spend that much time with them because I have other things to prioritize. Not that they didn't matter a lot to me. Because they do. But the thing with the time is that, it is never going to be enough for everything. Including friends. Agree ? Ergo, sorry if I weren't able to see some of you guys when I should be. I hope me apologizing this to you came close to me spending time with all of you. Hope we get to spend some time soon (: InsyaAllah.






On another different topic, I think Midzi's brother, Kimi looks a lot like Kaka. I don't have Kimi's picture to show some obvious resemblance though. And I don't think I'm allowed to put his picture here on my blogspot if I have any because I don't have his permission to post it. So, this actually turns out to be pointless because you didn't get to compare. Haha. Anyhow, I have his blogspot url at the side of my 'Daily Reads' column. So you can pay him a visit and see it for yourself.

A day with friends

Went to see Midzi and Jay yesterday at Oldtown White Coffee in Plaza Shah Alam besides Concorde Hotel. I had my usual Oldtown Lava Coffee ice-cream. In fact, I had two this time because I had a long talk with them, especially Midzi because Jay had to leave early to pick her mum up from work. Jay was trying to find a job earlier for her semester break because she decided that she needs money to splurge and spend on things and goodies. Being her, she's being too choosy over a temporary job. She secretly (not so secret anymore. It wasn't even a secret pun actually) told me that she had to go over and look for the other workers before she decided to work there. I'm not getting her. But that's her alright. She happens to be skeptical and empower with negativity on everything before she even gets to know someone or try something. She even used to hate me before we became closed friends. I used to teased her once about hating me before even getting to know me because I was trying to stop her from judging someone else that she barely even know. Later she goes "Haha. Alaa okay okay la". I know, cute ! I love her though. Because she is a really nice person despite her skeptic and negative empowerment. We all have our own flaws, common. Forgive her for having one.

If I have to list out one thing that I love about her, I have to say her sensitivity towards the world. She have always been very sensitive about the world biggest issue, which is having a peace world to live in. I remember like it was yesterday, she used to call me up and cried over something I'm not sure of what because I couldn't hear her because she was crying while talking. She said that there's a baby died in between the US war against Iraq. I'm not sure if she remembers this, but she told me that it's not fair for the baby. Right then, I knew that she has a great heart and a great person in and out. I'm truly honored to be friends with someone like her. It's hard to find true friends these days. You can have as many friends in your Facebook friend's list or your contact list, but true friends are hardly to be found. So, my advice to everyone, treasure the one that's been with you through everything. Uphill and downhill rides. Because they're the one that's true in being your true friends. They will never bail on you. And despite you will not always be seeing each other, you can still be the bestest of friend when you meet. Alhamdulillah, I've found mine. I even had a few. And I hope they'll remain the same. Maybe not physically, but deep down. Midzi was always one of them too. He's a great lad. Like I've said before, he too have his own flaws. But don't we all ? I can tell he's a great friend to me. He's been there, maybe not always, but through some difficult phases in my life, he's there. Always up to listen to everything that I have to say and tell. Not just that, he's great in comforting me while I'm crying. I can honestly say that, not everyone can stand me when I cry. It is something beyond my control. And you have to consider yourself lucky if I chose you to cry over to. Because I have only a few that can be trusted in seeing me crying. Anyway, I'm not sure how I went into this direction talking about friends and related subjects. This is absolutely spontaneous alright.

Okay anyway, back into the story. The night on the very same day where I went to see Midzi and Jay at the Oldtown White Coffee section 9, Zila, Jojie and Izil came down to my house to see me around right after Isya'. They planned to have a drink at Pak Li 7. And so, I don't have a heart to say no to them, since Jojie and Izil came all the way from KLIUC in Bangi to see Zila and me. I asked for Maa's permission to go with them. Maa being the best mother in the world said yes though it was almost too late for me to go out. Almost past my curfew. But she didn't hesitate to say yes when I asked her. Besides, I bet she knows it won't take me that long anyways because we're going to have a drink or two and update on things that I've been missing. It was a night filled with dramas as I was trying and helping Jojie and Zila to solves their relationship issues. Trying to help them to not point any fingers towards each other and just admit what they're done wrong to each other. I hope they'll stay strong to each other because they've gone through a lot. And I mean it, A LOT ! And I know better, that they love each other so much to just let it go now. That's a waste to me.

Okay lah, I think I've talked a lot already. I need to get on with my chores. Later readers.