10th July 2010

The fact that I failed to do great in my I.E.L.T.S test (I have a feeling) left me with the thoughts to ignore this blog for awhile.

At least, until now (:

I'm all better ! Not convincing aye ? Okay, maybe I'm not ALL better ): But getting there. I'm so frustrated for the fact that I know I can do so much better. If only I managed to control the itch of my nervousness, then all should means well to me. What I should be feeling right now is a sense of relief not regret.

But the reality stands in now. Nothing I could really do to make things different at this point. So I might as well leave the thoughts and wait for the next 2 weeks until the end result is out. Ya Allah, please let it be not-that-bad. Amin

So, what happened yesterday morning was something I should left unmentioned. I don't even want to recall. After I got back from the test, I stuffed my noisy tummy with mee jawa and off for a long nap a minute right after. I know how bad that sound, but I really couldn't care much less that I'm not doing justice for my digestion. For once, I chose to take better care of my heart rather than my tummy first. And at the very least, I know that I'm being fair because I filled my tummy up first to make the noises stop.

Got up by Yaya's noise making device, her handphone. Went downstairs and found out Maa and Ayah had just got back home from golf in Seremban with satay kajang. Apa lagi, lepas tu bedal satay la. But as I was enjoying the food with high satisfaction, the parents started asking me about the you-know-what. I couldn't no longer suppressed my feelings and let them know eventually that I might be failing them. And as much as I wanted to cry, I did not (Clap clap). Instead, I went for a pause and started to complain. And the rest you wouldn't want to know.

Glad all turned out fine by the end of the day. Went to the driving range with Yus to swing some balls. Hundred to be exact. Not much I suppose. They're closing in early at BJ that night. In fact, we were the last one there. And half of the lights were off. Spooky ! Had a few soaring balls to make me forget the not-so-happy things earlier. Since Yus haven't had his dinner yet, we decided to call out Iddy to join us for makan. End up dropping by at Syaz's house for an unexpected barbeque invites because Iddy was there. And met Amir, Syaz's boyfriend and Syaz's sweet cousin, Nawal. Glad the night topped off my suck-ish morning. I'm all good (: Thank you thank you !