When I should be sleeping

Have always been curious why westerners wear shoes inside their house. And I've finally came up with a simple answer on my own after all these years.

Since I've been working a lot around the house this past few weeks, I realized that my feet turned swollen because I was moving around too much. And the pain only managed to reduce after Maa asked me to wear a house slipper that she just bought for herself whenever she's on house duty (usually during weekends because she's working). I guess it make sense to me now. Whether or not it's true.

And so that's my only logic for most westerners that wear their slippers or shoes inside the house.

So, life as usual for me - which you should know if you've read my previous posts - been doing chores after chores. Considering how tired I am, I really need to treat myself with body massage this weekend. If I have the time to I will. I've been up to meet up with friends lately. I guess I miss them and needed some time off out from the house because I've been breathing in inside ventilated air. In which, not fresh at all. From all the sweeping and moping, I've been posses by dust mite. The one thing I'm allergic to the most. But everything work out fine in the end, because Maa usually took the time to thank me for keeping the house in great shape. It's always nice to feel appreciated by someone or anyone after you've done your best to help out or put an effort to care about something. Usually I'll end up holding in my tears when Maa said "Thank you sayang for helping out" because that's the best thing to hear after a long tiring day.

Yaya have been really busy for me lately. I felt left out sometimes because I miss talking to her and listening to her impractical silly jokes. I can't help but to make her up with my big grumpy face. It's like I'm telling her, "Give me some attention ! I need moral support for I am very exhausted !". But she usually end up being away from me even more. I guess she hates it when I'm fierce ? I guess I just needed someone to ask me, "Hey are you okay ?". Things like that. Now you know how I can be a sucker for attention. You may now call me 'the attention seeker' especially the fact that I needed more attention now because sometimes I feel like an outsider, or in a way, a 'bibik' for real. Can you blame me ? I guess a little maybe. But I think it's normal to feel that way especially since you're the only one who's been working out with the house work. Alone without any help from anyone. Except from Maa when she get's home from work or during weekends. As much as I love my siblings, they haven't been helping me at all. Spoilt little brats ! Hehe. I love them above all though. So I don't really mind them not helping. Besides, I'm doing this because I wanted to without being forced. But like I've said, a little attention would be nice, to let me know you actually care I'm doing what I am doing. But that doesn't make me not sincere in doing it. It's easy if you put it this way. When you said "Hii" to someone. You would appreciate them to answer back your greeting. Instead of them simply turn you off with a stingy look. Right ? So it's actually the same. Logic people. When you do something nice. You would love people to take note. But doesn't make you not sincere in doing it. I hope people will start to be nice. Not that they aren't. They could be nicer if they pay more attention, sensitive towards their surrounding and particular towards this small little things. Because things as small as this, can make a huge different to someone like me at the end of the day. From a huge cranky tired face to a huge smiley one. I guess I should thank Maa for always making my day by saying her thank yous. Love you Maa (:

I'm starting to feel a bit sleepy now. Guess I should turn off to bed. And let's hope I'll dream about Vanness Wu tonight. Yes, I'm not over him just yet. He's all I could think of right now. Night (: