Constraining thoughts

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Najwa M's post entitled 'Questioning, Endlessly' is one of my favourite post from Bloggers. Something that I can relate to myself. Wearing hijab is obligatory. It's not something that you can pause and wait until the right time. Instead, it's something I need to force myself doing it so. Because that's the law. The law that I have always been feeling guilty for not obeying. I hope someday I'll have the guts to. I'm running out of time. And I don't want to be in denials any longer. It's unfair to myself and God.

And again relating to Najwa. Maa and Ayah always been reminding me to wear hijab. Never gets tired of it even. But I kept giving excuses after excuses (silently which makes me in denials). One thing I'm not proud of myself. Something that scares me to death, but I can't seem to take charge and change. It's frustrating to oneself talking about this. But I should be reminded often. And not move backwards.