People behind my existence

Meant to do this earlier on my birthday. But haven't had the time to. This goes to my loving mother, whom I love with all my heart. I'm not good with words, but here it goes.

Dear Mama,

First and foremost, I love you I love you I love you ! You're basically my whole life. You've put me to the point where I can never imagine living without you. Just to think of it, makes me cry. I owe you my life Maa. And I know there's nothing in the world I could give you to make it up for everything that you've had done to raise me. Albeit, I was never tame and easy. I can only hope you're happy with what I have become because more or so, it reflects you. I hope I have made you happy. Because that is all I could give to repay because I have nothing else to offer. To everything great in me, it's always you behind it and thank you. And to everything not so great in me, must have come from myself. Ergo, I hope you'll always be there to help me become a better being to oneself. And God, let her stay with me through the longest of time.

21 years ago, you've put yourself into so much pain bringing me to life. I can never really find a reason why people should celebrate me instead of you. You risk your own life for me. You were never certain it will work, but you're willing to take it. And I know, the whole reason behind it is because you love me. Thank you Maa. Eventhough, I'm practically was a stranger to you because we never met before, you had tried your best to embrace me for 9 long months despite all off the difficulties because you love me. You carry me in your own body, and I bet it hurts and tiring, but you went through the long wait to let me get my own glimpse in life. Thank you thank you thank you Maa. Now, that's true love.

I'm sorry if I've made you cry before. I have no excuse for doing such sin despite all of the things you've sacrifice for me. And I'm sorry from all the fights we had when I was my rebel-teen self. You have had put up a lot. Thanks for being so patient and still loving me through it all, because I was really something back then. Thank you again Maa. I hope God will blessed you in this world and in the hereafter, and I hope He'll provide you with only the best that He has to offer. May Allah put you together and side-to-side with His greatest people. Amin. Lastly, I thank God for giving me the soul and let you be the mother of my soul. For I will never ask for another mother because I've had mine as the best out of all. I am indeed grateful.

Love from your daughter forever and always,
Nurfara Elisa Zainal

Also to Ayah, the bread winner to the family.

Dear Ayah,

I know I don't usually said this to you, but I hope you know that I love you. And for every reasons in the world for me to be proud, I'm proud of you. So proud ! The only reason why wherever I may go, I'm gladly happy to be carrying your name with mine. Instead of referring myself as Nurfara Elisa, I will always proud to refer myself as Nurfara Elisa Zainal instead. I bet most of the people who knows and remember my name, remember yours too. I am not who I am without you. So thank you Ayah (: Love you always. And thank you for being the reason I am standing alive now.

Much love from a very proud daughter,
Nurfara Elisa Zainal